God loves messy.

I know, odd title. It’s true though.

I am not going to use this post as my emo/fun/wild loooooong biography (just yet, anyway.) But let me tell ya, God loves messy.

It wasn’t until my life was turned upside down, sideways, and down again, that I really started talking to God (and listening too.) 

I grew up in a loving Christian home. My Sunday’s consisted of worshipping with my family at our church followed by a yummy lunch. Some of my fondest memories involved church camps, bible studies, and small groups. I woke up nearly every morning to my sweet mama reading her Bible and devotional sipping on a cup of coffee. My God fearing dad always prayed before dinner, before bedtime, and taught us how to shoot up few power prayers here and there. God was living in my heart and in my home, but did I only know him surface level?

You see, it wasn’t until I was mad, really mad at God that I questioned him. It wasn’t until I was scared, heart broken. It wasn’t until I was desperate for Grace that I heard him.

I used to ask myself, “God, where are you?”

I cried, “WHY DID YOU BRING ME TO THIS PLACE?”

…and I think he replied, “Kaitlin, because this is where I am.”

WOAH

God is in the mess. He is in the hurt, the regret, the anxiety, the unknown. God meets you where you are. Seriously. 

This isn’t a – wait let me get my life together and maybe clean my room and volunteer this week – kind of relationship. God will meet you now.

It took me a years, tears, and many reality checks to realize our God wants us to question him. He asks of us to test him. He listens (a lot better than I can.) God is begging to hear our worries, anxieties, and prayers. Why? Because He answers. He IS the answer.

Don’t look at your life, your situation, and put God in a box. Whatever mud you’re going through, whatever battles you’re facing. He is ready! God is sitting on the bench ready for you to put him in the game.

BUHHLIEVE ME, I am the first to say that my life is messy. My life is busy, it’s chaotic, it is usually more stressful than it is not. I am not sure exactly what I am doing. (That’s okay too.) I drink too much coffee, and not enough water. I sin. I fall short. I am not the best listener. I am anxious and unsure. I am not a perfect Christian (and I will never claim to be.) I have my own mud and dirt that I am trudging through – some days more than others. College isn’t easy, I often feel unfit and beaten down. MESSY. Very messy.

* Note that messy does not mean I don’t experience abundant, blessed, and joyful days. I am blessed beyond measure! Without this mess I wouldn’t be me, and for that I am SO grateful. I have come to LOVE this mess. 

Although my days are far from perfect, they are filled with laughs (the really ugly bad joke snort kind), mistakes, small victories, and most importantly, Jesus.

God never promised us a smooth and freshly paved road without some bumps and potholes. You won’t always pass GO and collect your $200.

IT IS OKAY TO QUESTION GOD. Meet our God with BIG questions, BIG prayers. Ask. Cry. Rejoice. BIG God > BIG problems. 

If you are stuck in a rut, if you are hurting, seek Him. Do NOT be ashamed of where you are because HE already knows. He sees. He wants you to draw near to Him and wrap his arms around you. Let me tell you, the peace that passes all understanding, is a peace like no other. Invite him in. Nothing big and scary, no APA format, you don’t need a speech.

Mine often sounds like: God, I don’t know what your plan is. I’m hurting. I’m anxious. I need you. Please bring me comfort tonight.  

or: God I know your plan is far better than mine, please help me to trust in yours.

Through my mess God has given me hope. Every morning I wake up knowing – hey, this might not be easy, but thank you Jesus I am not doing it alone!

{Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning. Psalm 30:5}

I find rest (real rest) in my sleepless nights, comfort in my worries, and my personal fave; finding joy in answered prayers. (Some unanswered too.) SO MANY PRAYERS. The prayers that hit my pillow, the prayers on the way to a big exam or before I hit the road. The prayers that might seem silly, or worded weird and awkward. My prayers of desperation, and my prayers of blessing. And the prayer more common than not, is the one I don’t really know how to say – so I don’t say much at all, but he meets me there.

He meets me, ALLLL DAY ERRRRYDAY. He’ll meet you, too.

Your mess is never to messy for our God. You won’t find God peeping down from heaven shaking his head saying, “Nahhh, that’s just a little too messy for me, a little too far, eh that’s where I draw the line.”

God’s love for you is unconditional. No, really. Unconditional.

Even on those days – those days where you don’t want to get out of bed, you feel like you’re too far gone. He is there. He is here. It’s not too late, there is no trial period, you are never too far gone. God loves messy. And I’ve come to love messy too.

“There is no pit so deep, that God’s love is not deeper still.” – Corrie Ten Boom

xo kait

16 thoughts on “God loves messy.

  1. WOW!!! So amazing and truly inspiring!!! Love you and this blog!!

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    1. Thank you so much Liv! I love you!

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  2. This was amazing! I almost cried and I am not a crier haha. You reminded me of so many important things, things I really needed to hear. You’re so inspiring! Love you!

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    1. So sweet of you Jenna!! I love you!

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  3. Kait,
    You are so right. God wants to meet us where we are, in all the messy. I cannot even begin to imagine a life without knowing there is a God who loves us so much at our worst and ugliest moments on this earth. But He does, with open arms. And that is how I LOVE YOU!!
    Dad
    We love because
    He first loved us.
    1 John 4:19 NIV

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    1. I love you Papa K, more than you know!

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  4. Kait, you are such a talented writer. Always have been ♡

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    1. Thank you so much Taylor! Love you 💕

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  5. Love love love this so much! I am glad you made this!!! 🙌🏽💗 keep it coming 🤘🏽

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  6. this has inspired me in so many ways i can’t even begin to say. reading this just gave me hope for all the good that is about to come. you truly are amazing and I can’t wait to read what you got coming next. 💕

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    1. So sweet of you Morgan!!! I can’t wait either! 💕

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  7. Wow! Kait this was amazing to read. So many important reminders that we tend to forget. Thank you for sharing this, I love it & you!

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    1. I needed to remind myself too!! Love you 💕

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  8. this was beautiful and exactly what I needed to hear!! God is great… keep writing please!

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  9. I’m really proud of you!!!

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