Do you ever have those days when you just feel meh? Stuck.
As a twenty-something student myself, there are days I feel as though the sun is directly shining on me – and days I feel the rain.
My little life roadmap (I know you have one too) that I’ve sketched into my brain seems to have a bit more off-roading and back tracking than expected.
Annoying. (Gas is expensive and I’m in a hurry.)
As I sit here I can’t help but look at my map. It’s not the cutest. It’s kinda messy. It’s not color coded or the most organized.
There are days I look at my map and I am FRUSTRATED. I should be to this point by now – this job, this degree, this much in my savings account, this relationship, ____________(fill in your blanks.)
For the first time in about 4 years I’ve been unemployed for the past month. I have had WAY too much time on my hands. Time to really ask myself those awkward questions. Wrestle with God a little bit.
There were far too many days I looked at my map only to sit down on the couch and feel discouraged and defeated. This isn’t what I planned.
I prayed. I cried. “I know you have a plan for me God, I know your plan is good but how much different is it from mine???”
“Is this YOUR plan?” (please holla back)
I felt like an annoying toddler kicking the back of my dad’s seat in the car asking, “are we there yet?”
If you know me, you might know that I am not the most patient human in the world (I’m working on it) and I thrive under pressure. That -SNAP SNAP come on people let’s move it- kinda pressure. So, you can guess that this period of stagnate boredom (and somewhat laziness), really tested me.
God had straight up pulled me over on my highway to who knows where and practically forced me to sit in his presence.
I woke up a couple days ago with a word on my heart. (I know it sounds weird and usually the word I let myself hear first thing in the morning is caffeine, but this is better.)
Why bloom??? It’s Colorado in the dead of winter and everything is brown and ugly and dead. But again I heard it, bloom.
You see, unlike my worldly plans, God is INTENTIONAL.
BLOOM HERE. Right here, right now, right where you are.
“And don’t be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God’s place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there.” – 1 Cor. 7:17
RIGHT SMACK DAB in the middle of the unknown, the detour, the desert, the mountains. You might not be there yet; wherever “there” is, but you can still love, and grow, and give.
Let this season of your life challenge you to desperately love others – to show God’s grace in the unknown. He is still good.
If you’re reading this right now and you feel like you’re not where you want to be – know that God might’ve completely and utterly wrecked your plans before your plans wrecked you.
That test you failed, that job that fell through, that relationship that took a turn for the worse. Bloom.
Water your garden where you are, love where you are, give what have now. It might not make sense, it’s probably uncomfortable. But you can grow here. You will grow. You will bloom.
I’ve come to love the scenic route.
If you think you’ve blown God’s plan for your life, rest in this. You, my beautiful friend, are not that powerful.